weird

hmm this post doesnt quite coincide with how i m feelin now cause it was written on a piece of paper earlier and i m jus addin it now...

hmm alot of time i wonder why people find it hard to understand me or the things i do, alot of times i have been misunderstood, grudges and even enmity forged not cause there was ani malice but simpli due to misunderstandings and a distinct lack of communication..alot of things i have done i do with a intention of good virtue but people misinterprete me and we end up squabblin

So today being in a pensive mood and all i sat back and in a quiet calm spot i sat with my trust glass of carrot juice and pondered...i realised hey i cant blame them simply because i dnt see them at fault...the fault with this social stability is tat its not important to be right but rather to be cool or wat society thinks of us..its this mindset wich makes a man make enuff money to buy a car a flat yet neglect needs like food proper sleep..its this herd effect wich makes one want to appeal to the others in society...in my context it doesnt pay to wanna help if u look good, it isnt worth it to be sincere coz people dnt realli like nice people coz they are oni needed in times of difficulty..simply this world oni likes people whu folow the herd people whu do things like evry1 does, people whu dnt comply wif all for one are deemed retards or outcastes, i wonder whu the real outcastes are when u hide ur true feelins, ur true likes/dislikes jus so a bunch of people whu dnt give a fuck whether u live or not dnt regard u as uncool...

I came to a conclusion that i am weird, i am different..i dont conform to normal things, i dnt like holidayin in paris or swiss alps, i rather go to turkey or cyprus, i dnt like cryin out to others my probs, i am a emotionless being in ur eyes, i dnt club cause honestli music is not a reason to find another horny person to screw...i am sorri that i dnt believe in fuckin evrthin that moves, i believe in virtue and values parents brought forth to me, i am truli an outcast cause i believe in love and all things good and pure adn that someday i'll find sum1 whu believes in virtues brought forth by parental guidance and ones inner conscience...